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May 17th, 2007
12:40 pm

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London here I come!
I'm so excited right now- I just submitted my visa application for the UK!
I can't believe things are coming together after so much BS!
Too bad no one is here for me to share this with...

Things on my Grad school checklist completed:
Accepted into best program- Yes, it's Sotheby's
I found housing in a really cool part of the city for under $1,000 per month- huge accomplishment (I get to mooch their wireless for free, use the laundry, and I have my own private bath!!)
I've applied for a ton of financial aid- even though student loans aren't bad I usually feel so depressed about them
I've applied to Sotheby's for a scholarship which would pay 30-50% of my tuition
I've finally gotten the enrollment packet so I could actually fill out my visa info
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Now I've submitted my visa application- even if it cost about $250!

All I would need is to hear from Cranbrook today saying they want me to work for them for the summer.

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October 11th, 2005
12:39 pm

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The Wedding of Doom
Here you go folks, as promised the true story of the worlds most awful wedding.
Friday:
Packed the car and headed out to go to the wedding. I had plenty of time so in case the directions that the bride gave me ended up being bad I had time to get to the rehearsal without any problems. I think I was too optimistic on my way there. The directions seemed fine, it was only once I got to Tecumseh were things started to go wrong. I couldn't find the turn to get to the country club, so I figured it must be farther than it looked on the map- no problem, I still had an hour. Got to the opposite side of town-no road. Damn! Turned around and went into a gas station-they usually know where things are, right? I think I ended up with the only person who had no clue. At least he let me see a map- it turned out that MapQuest was right for once. So, I had to go back through town and through the traffic for the "Appleumpkin Fest" (no joke that was its name- yes, I was in the middle of hickville at this point).Ended up at the country club with a half hour to spare-not bad considering I was 3 hours late to the shower! I went in the country club (what ended up being the room where we were going to have the reception) and oh my god my first thought was "How tacky!" The tables were covered with plastic rose-looking petals-dear god what were they thinking? I know that I sound so classiest, but it looked so bad. After I meet up with the bride I pretended to go back to my car for something and called Lia.I had to call Lia and tell her! OMG- I had to tell someone, otherwise I would've died on the spot of laughter. I was strong and went back in and then I got to meet the groom. He's 33, she's 21. It could be worse, but from what I remember they started dating when she was 17-icky! And they meet online, which I'm not totally comfortable with either. Anyway, meet the groom and his family- they're really strange. They make my dad's family look completely normal, which is saying something. Then, it was time to go through the ceremony. We did a practice run inside so we won't be outside so long, but the minister had no idea of what she was doing so that took about 25 minutes just to figure out how we were suppose to go down the aisle. Then the mother shows up. So far my interactions with her have been lead me to be disinclined to tolerate her. Now she shows up completely sloshed. Her face is bright red and she's practically falling over and reeking of alcohol. Oy! After that we went through the rehearsal with no big upsets, except the bride sinking into the ground because she's wearing shoes that have a heel the size of golf tees and she's MUCH heavier than what should be sustained by those heels. After the rehearsal we went to the bride's grandparent's house for the rehearsal dinner(which the groom's family is suppose to do by the way).On the way to the bride's grandparent's house I was following the groom and the thought that popped into my head was "This is what it must have been like for Mom following Dad to Aunt Anne's Wedding"(this was the last straw for her and decided to divorce him then), they were just driving so crazily and so fast that my poor little car could hardly keep up. This is when everyone else started to drink uncontrollably, except me because I still needed to drive to A2 (and so did half the people there too). Now her parents were so drunk that they started taking about what they did with the bride's placenta-icky! I really didn't want to know about that, but they obviously thought that was an appropriate conversation topic. *shudders* After the meal and everything it was finally time to go- I was so tired and worn out from pretending that I just wanted to get to bed the bride's mother decided that instead of having me drive to A2 in my car I could just put my things in another car that was going there. For me this was a terrible suggestion, but I wanted to be as nice as possible so I didn't argue. This ended up being more difficult overall than it would have been for me just to drive myself. I could only bring a couple things of homework because space was tight so I opted for German since we were going to have a quiz and a test this week. I should have known better! All I wanted was some alone time to talk to people and complain about this stupid wedding but no; I had to continue to play nice. Grr. Got to A2 and was exhaused but because the bride was screaming at the top of her lungs i.e. talking I didn't get to sleep until about 1 am. Was not a happy person.
Saturday:
The bride was so loud when she woke up at 6 am (which according to my clock was 5 am-central time) I was wide-awake too. Usually I'm a morning person, but defiantly was not one then. I was up for a little bit and then decided to go back to bed for as long as I could sleep which ended up being only 1 hour longer. Had a coldish shower, which didn't help my mood any and then went in search of food. If I had had my car I would've gone to get a cranberry bagel(my favorite kind), but no such luck. There was really no reason for me to be up that early anyway, especially since the bride didn't want me to get my hair or make-up done. Fine by me I wouldn't trust anyone she picked anyway, but wasn't that nice of her? Plus, if I did want my hair and make-up done it would have cost me $40 for hair and $50 for make-up (the bride needs to pay for what she wants the attendants to look like not the attendants pay. It’s her responsibility not the attendants. Honestly!)So I didn't have either done- good thing too- the stylist was horrible! While I was waiting I got to "study" German, meaning I locked myself in the spare room to cry. Called Mum and was cheered up a little, but I desperately wanted to leave. The rest of the day continued to be miserable and then we left for the wedding around 3 and the wedding was at 5. First though we had to drive back to the bride's grandparents to pick up the things that bride left and more importantly my car so I could have some peace and get the hell out of there. It took about an hour to get to the country club from A2 and then another half-hour to drive and pick up of the stuff and go back to the country club so we got there with about a half-hour to the wedding. I have never been so flustered! None of us are dressed at this point and people are already sitting! So I jump into my dress so I can at least help other people get ready. And to add to that we got changed in, get this, a locker room! What were they thinking? I really have no idea who would think getting changed in a locker room is a good idea or even a smart one. Yes, let's get changed in a disgusting locker room-ICK! The bride so far has had 3 glasses of champagne and downs another before we go down the aisle. According to her she gets tipsy on 1 glass, so she's pretty wobblely as she walks down the aisle leaning on her parents (who had also had a few drinks). It was so cold out and then the wind started to pick up. The material of my dress is really light so needless to say wind is a very bad thing. There were a few times when my dress was seconds away from blowing up- great. Our flowers looked like they were going to pretty, but mine ended up looking really dead- they were brown as I walked down the aisle- hardly fresh at all. It would have looked better if we had fake ones instead! Speaking of fake flowers, for the flower girl they made a pomander out of fake flowers, it would have been fine had they not used the really ugly plastic ones! And to top it off they were married facing a golf hole so on one side there was a bunker and on the other a green. Who thought this would be a good place to get married? Obviously someone who golfs. What made the ceremony perfect was the fact that there were golfers and a cart! No shit, there was! I almost choked trying to not laugh. I had tears rolling down my face- good thing people cry during weddings. The ceremony finished and I was "walking" down the aisle with my escort (the world's skinniest guy), who is practically sprinting with me following teetering on my heels as I walk across soft grass and climb the steps (not easy to do in 3 inch heels and sprinting). As soon as my skin turned back to its normal pale color we had to go outside for pictures. Once again, my dress decided it wanted to fly up. So pictures took what felt like hours. Once again I was as red as my dress- not a good look for me. We finally got to go inside-hurray heat, well sort of. Then into the dinner. I had ordered steak and it came out so red, practically raw,that I had to send it back. When I came back I only picked at it anyway, but out of everyone I ate last. I had requested non-alcoholic champagne (sparkling white grape juice) and there was the regular kind there so I ended up toasting with my water because I didn't even want to risk getting tired because of it. After the meal I pretty much booked out as fast as I could. I should also mention the attendants’ gifts that we got- they were from Claire's so plasticy and still had the price tag on them-V. Classy. They've been sent to the free box so whoever wants them can have 'em.

So there it is. I have one more thing to add- I swear that if I'm ever in a wedding outdoors again, it better be someone I actually know and still talk to and like. Oy. I do have some pictures, but I'm not completely sure how to put them up and I haven't put them on my computer yet.

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Current Music: Love Actually

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August 24th, 2005
07:01 pm

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panic attack!!
Oh my god! Grad school apps!!!!!!
Rest of life depends on them!!
What the hell will I do with my degree?
What if I don't get in?
I don't want to end up living with my 'rents after college!
Nothing in Grayling!
Oh my god I'm so srewed!






p.s. FYI to Lia guess what, the wicked bitch of the west is back- god help us. Poor Pooky- back to being dominated.

Current Mood: Scared and Paniced!!!!!

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October 18th, 2004
03:24 pm

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Yeah!!!!!!!!!!
I just finished my Greek exam and I feel awesome! I felt like I really understood the passages and I could scan the lines with no problem. Thank you to everyone who sent positive vibes to me. Such releif! Now I'm going to go do something fun!
Cheers!

Current Mood: bouncy and happy
Current Music: rain

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10:54 am

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Ickiness
Well, I've started today off well. My alarm went off at the normal time, but I thought I would get a few more z's- I got an hour worth of them. This has been happening a lot lately- I think I need to go to bed earlier( not as if I go to bed late or anything). Then, because I slept in I missed breakfast and my morning tea. Next I forgot my Latin homework in my(more specifically in my Greek folder- this makes sense doesn't it?)and since I lent out my umbrella I sprinted across campus and ended up looking like a drowned rat in Latin. At least I picked up my leg warmers from my room when I came back- they really helped since my jeans were soaked!( I know, leg warmers, how 80's, but they're subtle and soft and warm!) Also I had to change my shoes when I came back- wearing leather in rain not a good idea either for the leather or for warmth.
Latin wasn't bad, I told Steve that I didn't want him to call on me as I was stressed over the Greek exam and he said that was ok. He also said I had nothing to worry about and I would be fine. Yes, my head knows that, but why can't I convince myself totally of that fact- if I could I wouldn't be so damned nervous. I just want to get it over so I can start looking ahead to the Latin exam on Wednesday. I'm still going to watch a movie tonight and go to bed early, just for a treat and because there's no Revs.
I really hope the afternoon is better. Please send positive vibes my way if you get the chance.

Current Mood: stressed and wet
Current Music: rain outside

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September 2nd, 2004
05:03 pm

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I'm back!
Yeah, after being away from live journal all summer I'm back! This is so great!Anyway I promise that I'll be writing something soon-like this weekend.
love!

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May 1st, 2004
04:00 pm

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A visit from Tom
Well today I was presently surprised. Tom actually remembered to come over (since he forgot to yesterday but I can forgive that b/c he had an exam). I really can't hate him at all for being so stuck -up at times because it makes it so easy for me to tease and laugh at him.
We were going to watch "The Office" today but instead just talked for 2 hours this afternoon. I felt so at easy it was amazing. Last time we talked I was really tense because it was after I just yelled at him. Now I feel so relaxed and carefree. He was so different from the way he usually is. He was very complimentary and sweet.
No, I must not like him in a romantic way because it would be impossible even if he didn't have a girlfriend. I am so glad we are living on the same floor next year, even if it is only for a semester. He is so kind when he wants to be. And he gives such great hugs, so reassuring. Even though after he does tease me aboout standing on my toes because I'm shorter than him- I responded that it was a reflex(it's always done in romantic movies and then if it's a perfect match it's followed by the heel pop).
Ah, I'm starting to sound as if I like him. I have such conflicting feelings about him to begin with and then he acts so sweet.
I'm going to go clear my mind before I start saying " Tom said this..." or "Tom said that..."
I'm in one of those disgustingly happy moods although it makes no sense. Maybe because I watched Jane Austin movie last night and am watching a romantic comedy today. I guess that must be it, because there is no hope for a relationship between Tom and I, so I don't know why I would be acting like this otherwise.
Anyway, I'll stop being disgustingly happy and romantically stupid someplace else.
love.

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April 28th, 2004
04:51 am

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so early in the morning
Damn it! Why can't I sleep and how come it has to come when I have finals starting today?
I was up at 3 and thought that there might be a chance that I might sleep until 6, but no. I even beat "Morning Edition"! I was tried when I planned on going to bed, but when I got in bed around 11 I didn't fall asleep until 12. Damn, damn, damn!!!!!!
I remember having nightmares about Greek and all the declensions,verb conjugations, etc. but for-crying-out-loud! This is ridiculous, no class should do this.
My meds usually make me totally exhausted- why not this time? It was like the excitement that comes the night before a big trip- that's normal, this isn't.
Tom IM-ed me and asked why on earth I was up this early- he at least is writing a paper, me on the other hand I can't sleep. Laying in bed it felt so futile to even try.I'm not and was not even yawning!
This is going to be a long day. I'll be lucky if I can stay awake until dinner let alone midnight breakfast. (Sorry Rose, no midnight breakfast for me. I don't think I can stay awake that long.)
Right now I'm bitchy, awake, and stressed all at once.
I can't wait until finals are over!

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: NPR's "Morning Edition"

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04:39 am

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so early in the morning
Damn it! Why can't I sleep and how come it has to come when I have finals starting today?
I was up at 3 and thought that there might be a chance that I might sleep until 6, but no. I even beat "Morning Edition"! I was tried when I planned on going to bed, but when I got in bed around 11 I didn't fall asleep until 12. Damn, damn, damn!!!!!!
I remember having nightmaires about Greek and all the declensions,verb conjucgations, etc. but for-crying-out-loud! This is ridiculous, no class should do this.
My meds usually make me totally exhausted- why not this time? It was like the excitement that comes the night before a big trip- that's normal, this isn't.
Tom IM-ed me and asked why on earth I was up this early- he at least is writting a paper, me on the other hand I can't sleep. Laying in bed it felt so fultile to even try.I'm not and was not even yawning!
This is going to be a long day. I'll be lucky if I can stay awake until dinner let alone midnight breakfast. (Sorry Rose, no midnight breakfast for me. I don't think I can stay awake that long.)

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: NPR

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April 27th, 2004
06:11 pm

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Final's week
I want this week to be over so badly! All I want to do now is go to Greece and Italy. Tomorrow is the last class day and I get my exam for Greek-too bad it'll take until Friday to finish. On one hand it's nice but I really feel like I don't know anything. It was easier studying for the regular weekly exams because only a few chapters were covered and I feel more comfortable with more of the material. But now, I feel as if I'm already doomed to fail and this is what my GPA will be made up of! AHHHHHH.
Can you tell I'm freaking out? I just spend all afternoon (from about 1:30-5:30) looking over the vocab. and the chapters and I don't feel like I understand anything past the first 20 chapters. This is a bad sign especially since the exam is through chapter 36.
I'm also feeling terrible because I know that I've been neglecting my friends and that I won't see some of them until fall '05. I do want to do things with them, but I feel like I need to study. I wish there was a medium that I could reach between both. I don't think there will and when I'm done with exams I'm leaving. I can't even go see V. in dance alloy this weekend b/c I'm totally broke, as in I can't spend any money b/c of Greece and Italy.
My room is getting really depressing too. All the posters and pictures are down and the white walls look so blank and cold. My room is a mess (I don't have clothes on the floor and I can still see my carpet, but it is messy for me.) and it's adding to my stress and the only reason is that I'm half packing half studying so I'm not doing anything all the way. Aesthetically it's throwing me out of whack- I'll have to straighten up before starting my exam or I'll get so distracted.
At least tomorrow my work study is taking the student workers out to lunch and then later that night Rose and I will do something fun and then go to midnight breakfast. That should be fun and then Thursday I get to sleep in for the first time all semester (excluding weekends and vacations)!
I'm just in a blah mood right now. I do want to study but I don't want to do any more of it. Damn I hate when that happens and I have to.
(Whine)

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Current Music: people in the hall who don't have exams tomorrow

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April 26th, 2004
03:40 pm

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I'm procrastinating
I am doing (and have done)work so I don't feel so bad about this. I just feel like I mini-break, I'm still at my computer so I can do work any time during this update but I just want to do something that doesn't relate to Greek. Mainly because I am stuck on what to say for my introduction to my last paper and I can't move on. I do however have a very nice outline written so it should be a breeze when it comes to writing it.
I'm having such a good day ( at least academically I can't tell if it is going well in other aspects) I asked my Greek prof. today what my grade was in the course and I have to say I'm so relieved! An 83% isn't that bad when that includes a quiz grade that can be dropped and another quiz taken to make-up for the lowest. So that's fairly positive. I still want to get a B on the final but I think I can do it. Besides I have from Wednesday to Friday at 4. Then I'll have the whole weekend to polish my papers. Then my favorite part- packing!
I was so glad yesterday(that sounds so horrible to say that especially considering what has happened!) but I got to watch "Alias". I watched the episode from the previous week yesterday too, it was actually really nice to see them together. Anyway most people think I'm absolutly crazy when it comes to this show, but I really do love it. I have no idea what it is but it's so great. Lauren is defiantly bad, poor Paul wants her to be good, but there is no possible way that she is, she tortures Vaughn and then "rescues" him only to torture him some more. Sloane does not die but is kept alive by Jack in order to find 'the passenger' aka Sydney's sister, Nydia, and then at the end escapes with her to his hideout to put her into a trance in order that Rambaldi can speak through her from the dead. Next week should be good as the spy family gets together and Syd meets her aunt "the black sparrow". Ah, they put the fun back into dysfunctional. Grr- there are only 2 more episodes in this season left and I'm going to be in Greece for the season finale! I won't get to see it for 4 additional weeks, I'm going to forget what the plot is!
I know most of you could care less about what's going on in "Alias", but too bad. Not much besides Alias and work. Oh, I do have my last Greece meeting tonight- 19 more days!!!
Cheers!

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Current Music: muffled sounds below me and music from Rose's room

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April 25th, 2004
02:33 pm

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dismay
I just learned a bit ago that someone I knew, worked and lived with for a year has died. I'm not quite sure how I feel at this point. I don't think the realization of this has hit me yet. It's very odd. I can't say that I knew Billy well but I think I did get to know him. In a way I was envious of the type of personality he had, exuberant and energetic to say the least. I don't think I always agreed with the choices he made but that was none of my concern. The only reason I'm journaling now is to get it out of my head. Not to say I don't want to forget, but life is moving on. That's such a horrible thing to say! I am sorry about it, but there is nothing I can do to change it.
This is defiantly not the future that I had imagined for Billy. I'm feeling really confused right now. I wonder how V. is doing, I know they were good friends.I need to go call her.
love.

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April 18th, 2004
02:09 pm

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Yes, yes, yes!
Hooray I'm so happy right now! I just finished my paper on Plato's "Republic" for the wicked witch of the philosophy dept.!!! Ha- and done 1 day early too. I am Super Productive Woman!
This has been such a super weekend( despite getting 5 hours of sleep last night-Grr!)! Friday night the "Chicago Kings" came to campus. They were so great- I found myself thinking more than once that some of the women in the group made great men and vice-a-verses too. The coffee shop was absolutely packed with people that I ended up having to stand upstairs on a table to see! People on campus really got into the spirit of the event too and it seemed like everyone was cross-dressing. It was so funny when they did the EC drag show- some of the guys looked REALLY good in the dresses. There was one guy that was exceptionally good, he had leopard stretch pants, a thong underneath( I know this because he went up for the "panty contest"), a fantastic wig and a really tacky shirt. That took a lot of balls! I was really impressed with the creativity displayed.
Saturday was wonderful. All I did was lay out on the Heart for about 4 hours and read. I had to read Aristotle's "Metaphysics", but at least I was outside! After I got done with trying to understand that I got to read my fun book, " An Unsuitable Job For a Woman" by P.D. James. It's a great read b/c it takes place in Cambridge and P.D. James is such a wonderful mystery writer.
Well tonight I wish I was watching "Alias", but Revs. has a concert-damn!This week Lauren( Vaughn's wife) is going to be found out,I can pretty much guess the storyline,but still! Mum and Bob are going to tape it and send it to me after they watch it b/c they're coming to the Revs. concert.
I'm so excited about the end of the semester! Only 26 more days until Greece! Ahh! I can't contain my excitement much longer. And then Italy! Ohmygod- it's really happening! Only 1 more week of learning anything and then time for exams.
This week is going to go by so quickly! And there are a million things I have to do in addition to the normal week stuff. Like packing?Oh God! I'm leaving for the summer in 2 weeks-ek!
(Nervous energy kicking in)
Anyway, I'll stop bragging about traveling this summer, I guess I'm making people unintentionally jealous. I'm just so excited/happy/silly that I have so much energy!
Cheers!
P.S. Lucy, can you send me your street address again- I forgot where I put it.
Love!

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: the wind and the birds

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April 13th, 2004
05:06 pm

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Busy but happy.
So there are only 12 more class days in the semester and all this work to do- ekk! I totally live for this kind of pressure(sometimes).
I've had a ton of work lately but there have been some good things that have happened since my week hiatus from Live Journal, but mostly I've been living, breathing, sleeping, eating, and dreaming Greek. You know it's really bad when all the different conjugations that you know start acting like black knights (Although it got to be really funny toward the end-reminiscent of the scene from "Monty Python's Quest for the Holy Grail" when the one knight after getting arms, legs,etc. hacked off still wasn't dead).I suppose I'm the only one that has dreams about killer eta's and omega's.
On one hand I can't wait for the semester to be over, while on the other there's so much to get done beforehand. One of the biggest positives of the semester being over is that I never have to deal with a bitch of a philosophy teacher ever again. Thank God- if I had the choice of taking a class with her or shooting myself, I'd rather consider myself shot.
Right now I should be working on my "Republic" essay that's due Friday, but I don't care. I've worked on it all afternoon now I need to do something for me.
Oh,I hope Tom comes over sometime tonight- we're suppose to watch "The Office" sometime this week. I was talking to mum about Tom this weekend and she asked if I wasn't tring to steal him away from his girlfriend- oooh, I almost hope so, I mean absolutely not! It's not as if there is much point- we'd be horrible together and wouldn't last a day! It'll be interesting to see how we do when we live on the same hall next year- we won't be able to kill each other with so many witnesses. I know I am jealous, but honestly I would never do anything like that!
In Greek now we're learning the subjunctive I sort-of understand why we have to learn it but honestly does it really need to have a ton more forms? I know that I have learned the subjunctive in French, but all of my French is disappearing and is very vague. But it's been on my mind- I should work on re-learning French, at least the vocab. if not the verbs and forms also. Ah, something to do over the summer besides packing and unpacking.
Oh, Am so hungry right now! I think it's the weather that's making me hungry- dreary days seem to do that to me. Saga sounds wonderful right now and Lucy and Rose know what saga food is like- not the greatest thing on earth by any stretch of the imagination, but I take comfort to know that there are much worse places(perhaps Manchester College, right Rose?).
Humm,I think I read over my paper now, since I've had a chance to fool around.
Cheers!
(Lucy, If you do want to talk let me know and I'll call you. I have to say I feel bad that I haven't been keeping on top of things so I could help more. Let me know how you're doing, ok?)

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Current Music: howling of the frigid wind outside

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April 4th, 2004
07:56 pm

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Grrr
Well, only a few more weeks left. How do I know this because there are three more exams in class and then the final in Greek. Right now I'm really struggling and it feels terrible. After class on Friday (when we get our exams back) I just came back to my room, called mum and cried. I feel like such a failure and I feel like I'm letting my prof. down in addition to myself. It's horrible! I hate Greek, I start to dread it when I get up in the morning because I know that I'll make stupid mistakes in class and not understand any of the material. I seriously think that I have the worse grades out of the whole class. It's so hard too because I feel like I study so much and just when I get to the point that I might understand something I find out that I'm completely and utterly wrong. Why do I feel so stupid? Am I really that stupid? It seems like everyone else in my class understands what's going on- I'm just so dense!
What in God's name am I even going to do with a Classics major? There isn't a demand for people who know ancient Greek and Latin! What was I thinking;why don't I just become something useful and practical.i honestly don't know how I'm going to make it through the rest of the year. It would even be easier to feel like I was doing well. I think I'm barely getting a "C" in the course and I only have 2 others that would contribute to my GPA this semester. So much for a good grad. school!!!
As you can tell I'm frustrated with this. And what makes it worse is that one minute I love it and the next I can't stand it. Why can't I just make up my goddamn mind?!
I wish Tom would come over now- I need someone to just listen to me bitch and make me feel better. I would ask Rose but she has a prospy and I don't want to give the wrong impression.( Rose, I'm not blaming you please don't feel bad I know you have other things going on right now-don't worry, I just need to complain.) Maybe I'll send him an e-mail.
Susan( my Greek prof.) must think I'm hopeless! I sure I'm the most pathetic student in her class!
It doesn't help that I'm reminded by my Mum that Bob got D's in his 1st year of Greek but that doesn't make me feel better about mine! I always want to get the best grades, but never end up doing as well as I want. I don't think that's too unreasonable.
Anyway, I have to stop this before I start to cry again.

Current Mood: The depths of dispair
Current Music: the music from the room under me and the hum of my computer

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March 31st, 2004
06:59 pm

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London, England
Well I got into the England program. I think I should be more excited, I know I should be more excited. But I'm not. Too much Greek. Literally I'm getting to the point where I'm starting to think in Greek-too bad it's dead! It makes for really strange sounding sentences. Also I am like the father in "My Big Fat Greek Wedding"-"Give me a word any word and I can give you the Greek."
This means Rose and I will be winging our way off to lovely England next year for Spring Semester. Now I'll need to finish this year and next semester without getting too distracted.

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March 30th, 2004
08:45 pm

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a vist from Tom!
Yeah!
I feel forgiven! I know this is silly but it does make me feel so much better. He just popped by and we had a chance to chat. It was so nice and normal. It was almost as if we had never had a fight.
I got to tease him and he got to tease me.
It was like every other time. I was in my sports-bra and doing yoga and there was a familiar knock on the door. Guess who?
Anyway am going back to Greek.
Cheers!

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March 22nd, 2004
02:54 pm

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"W" did lie! Ha take that you rightwing-conservative jackass!
Hi everyone this is super important! This story just came out today and is taking the news media by storm. Richard Clark has worked in the White House and is now coming out with why we went to war in Iraq. It had nothing to do with VoMD! Everyone knew Bush had another adgenda!
Richard Clark was the counter-terriorism head person. He's been doing this since the Regan administration- he know's his stuff. He's worked under Republicans and Dems!
This has to be the catalyst for the removal of Bush.
Afganistan wasn't even the priority- the Bush administration didn't allocate money to help the troops or the people.
The numbers for the Iraqi war were even cooked! They fixed the books so they were using money that weren't even theirs.

No wonder US citizens are targeted! We're seen as anti-Arab and pro-Isreali- I'm not antisemitic but recklessly killing people-especailly children is wrong!
The US. should be forced to pay reperations to Afganistan, Packistan and Iraq.
Here are links to the articles I've found( let me know if you have found more!)
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/americas/3556191.stm

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/articles/A13607-2004Mar21.html

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/articles/A14760-2004Mar22.html

http://www.nytimes.com/2004/03/22/politics/trail/22TRAIL-CLARKE.html?hp

http://www.nytimes.com/2004/03/22/national/22CLAR.html

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/articles/A14923-2004Mar22.html

http://www.cbc.ca/stories/2004/03/22/world/carter_clarke040322

http://www.npr.org/

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Current Music: NPR!!!!!!!!!!!! and the BBC

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March 21st, 2004
07:41 pm

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Spring Break
For Spring Break this year I was unconventional. Instead of going somewhere warm and sunny I went up north to Michigan and into the land of snow. No joke but I had to pack a larger suitcase because of the snow boots and hats and gloves and...and...and.
And now I'm back at school and I want to go on vacation. I spent my break going from meeting to meeting with Mum and doing homework( which I didn't finish until Friday!) so much for a break. What I really need now is a break from my break.
Let's see what did I do?
On Friday I flew up north and drove to the UP.
I only did homework and reading on Saturday while Mum was in her meeting. I got alot done but I was getting really distracted.
Sunday Mum and I saw "Hildalgo" with Virgo Morrgenson- ohmygod is he HOT! He looked good in "Lord of the Rings" and he looks better in everything since. I've seen one of his earlier films and he didn't look that good but some actors look better as they age.
Monday as it was in the 30's I was strolling the beach and freezing my ass off!
For the rest of the week I was in and out of meetings and was doing work. It was so annoying! The whole point of going up north was to spend time with Mum because we have been so busy. And here I was following her from meeting to meeting and not have anytime together.
I don't even get to have family time at home! There is this guy who lives down the street from us in low income housing that keeps coming by and asking for money. Normally I am happy to help someone but forcryingoutloud! He comes by everyday!!!! I don't mean to sound like a Republican but he should go out and get a fucking job and leave us alone! It's not like we're rich either!
And another thing while I'm on a role- why do I have to be so god-damn perfect around everyone that my parents know? I hate being a PK! there are more expectations that I have to live up to - it's infuriating!
-Breath -
I've already been on both of these rants so I guess I don't need to go over them again but grrr!
Cheers!

P.S Tom wrote this reply to my apology/ what have you been up to e-mail
I was a little pissed at you for what you said. I have been way to busy. We are now officially not fighting (in my head). I wish I had more time but 17 creds is killing me. Feebes( his girlfriend) has been on me about time too. Hope to see you around and talk.
Have a good break (in a crappier place), ( Tom )
ps jk

Tell me again why I felt the need to be so hateful? Ah well, glad that is over!
Cheers!

P.P.S. I Finally have an appointment for England- wish me luck!

Current Mood: cold
Current Music: still watching "Queer Eye"- I love that show!

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07:34 pm

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cute guy on campus
I did write this on the 12th but didn't have time to post it.

So there is a super cute guy that I've been noticing lately. I have no idea of what his name is but I know I've been introduced to him before by someone at some point. I think his name begins with an "N", but since anyone can lookup a name or something like that on LJ. it's better to not use real names(that thanks to a lesson from Lucy and one of her friends last year). There are somethings I know about him such as his first name(what should I call it here?), he wears a green hat( defiantly stands out in a crowd), plays french horn, has I would say shoulder length hair that is blond ( not what I usually consider handsome on either count), also has a bit of a beard(the scruffy type, not full- see Rose, I sometimes like them too it just all depends) (definitely far from normal!), and when I
was at the homecoming dance I was dancing with M. and H. and he came up and started too. I think he's a friend of their's( maybe I should ask, but must not make it obvious). I think he's also in the Jazz band. Hey, even though I know so much ( or at least I think I do) I am still my level headed self. Like I was telling my Mum the other day I don't think I'm capable of being head-over-heels in love with anyone. Anyway, enough about my pseudo-love life. This afternoon I watched a movie with Rose instead of reading Plato. I thought it was a very good use of time. Now though I have a headache- damn and I have to drive too. I guess I should start wearing my glasses ( Yes, after 18 years of perfect vision I sometimes need glasses) more often. Tom is talking to me again which I am relieved about. Now I can feel less guilty of one thing. There's nothing more than the normal pleasantries but it's something. I did send him a nice long e-mail, but haven't heard back.Now am off to a philosophy meeting!
Cheers!

Current Mood: lazy
Current Music: watching tape of "Queer Eye for the Straight Guy"

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